**A Tribute to Verna Avril: DJ, Creator, and Friend**
Today, we pause to honor and celebrate the extraordinary Verna Avril, a beloved DJ at Event Plaza, an accomplished builder, and a cherished friend to so many. Verna has recently been diagnosed with late-stage cancer, and while the news has left us heartbroken, her unwavering spirit continues to shine brightly in the time she has left.

For those who have had the privilege of knowing Verna, you know her as a force of nature. Her music has been the heartbeat of Event Plaza, where she transforms gatherings into magical experiences, spinning tracks that bring people together and create memories that last a lifetime. As a DJ, Verna doesn’t just play music—she shares her soul through every beat and rhythm.

Beyond her music, Verna is a visionary builder and creator. She owns and curates numerous regions, each a testament to her incredible talent and love for creating beautiful spaces. Her worlds are filled with life, imagination, and wonder—a reflection of her boundless creativity and dedication.

Verna’s style and charisma are as unforgettable as her music. Always impeccably dressed in her signature short black dresses, she carries herself with grace and confidence that inspire those around her. But it’s her warmth, kindness, and generosity that truly make her unforgettable.

In this challenging time, Verna has shown us the depth of her strength. Even as she faces this diagnosis, she continues to remind us of the importance of living fully, loving deeply, and creating beauty wherever we can.

As her community, let us rally around her with our love and support. Share your stories, your memories, and your gratitude for the joy she’s brought into your life. Let’s celebrate Verna Avril—not just for what she’s accomplished, but for who she is: a beacon of light, creativity, and love.

We don’t know how much time we have left with her, but we do know this—every moment with Verna is a gift. Let’s cherish these moments together and honor her legacy, now and always.

Stay strong, Verna. You are loved more than words can express. 💖

Aussie and I will be hosting an event to celebrate our friend Verna Avril. In the meantime, please post messages for her here as she cannot be in Opensim but can read this website. Thank you in advance for posting for her! I will make all the messages and stories into an online book for Verna.

PAGANE WAS RIGHT!
From the firestorm creators own website, I quote. "There are occasions when a block is probably best for everyone. As an example, we can consider the recent 6.6.16 release, which had the potential to mess up inventory. That needed to be blocked to stop people from “hurting themselves” and causing ourselves and Linden Lab undue support overheads."
https://www.firestormviewer.org/firestorm-6-6-17-will-not-...

As some of you might have seen, the region hosting the Shoppe has divided into four themed ones, and so have we!
- Starchild Shoppe: Furniture: hop://playground.darkheartsos.com:8002/Boutiques%20NW/768/...
- Starchild Shoppe: Odds&Decor: hop://playground.darkheartsos.com:8002/Boutiques%20NE/380/...
- Starchild Shoppe: Landscaping: hop://playground.darkheartsos.com:8002/Boutiques%20SE/109/...
While the previous location is still available, it will be decomissioned soon!

Today at Soul-Grid !!!!

Up to 8pm CET the Soul Residents' Show begins. Our Show is more then entertaining. It's an Adventure, which brings people together. It's where you find friends, where you laugh and have fun together. Share that moment with us, let's enjoy the Show. Danach After-Show
Were looking forward to see you
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Heute im Soul-Grid !!!!

Ab 20 Uhr starten die Soul Bewohner mit ihrer Bühnenshow, unsere Bühnenshow ist mehr als Unterhaltung – sie ist ein Erlebnis, das Menschen zusammenbringt, wo man Freundschaften knüpft, wo man lacht und miteinander spaßt. Teilt diesen Augenblick mit uns, lasst uns miteinander feiern.
Danach geht es mit Musik und guter Laune weiter.
Wir freuen uns auf euch

GET A TEXT MESSAGE ON YOUR CELL PHONE WHEN A REGION GOES DOWN.
How to get text messages, emails, pushover, telegram, and jabber alerts if a region goes down on your grid. Well it's easy. Download servermonitor from https://github.com/phpservermon/phpservermon Next unzip it and upload it to your linux box. I put the files in /var/www/html/servermonitor.
Next get on your web browser and go to websiteaddress.com/servermonitor/install.php Fill in the questions. Set up a web database of your choosing. Create a user and a password. I did this: create database servers; create user 'someone'@'localhost' identified by 'password'; grant all on servers.* to 'someone'@'localhost'; flush priveleges;
Once that is set up, it's a breeze. Use the web interface to add servers to your list. For regions just enter a service and the port number the region is on. example service, custom port, 8007 Then select how you want to be notified if the region goes down. e.g. email or sms text message, etc. Finally using crontab -e enter * * * * * /usr/bin/php /var/www/html/servermonitor/cron/status.cron.php You are done. Now if one of your regions goes offline you will know about it in 60 seconds. Also you can add websites to the list to be monitored, mail servers, any kind of server really. It has a looooong list of server types that can be added. (very handy). Additionally you can click on a region and see it's uptime plotted hourly, daily, weekly, monthly, and yearly as well as LATENCY. We all know how important latency is for showing lag. :) Enjoy!
Note: LINK FIXED
Note: When they go offline the console shows them as red. Also you get a text message, email, etc.

The Love Is Love Alliance
We promote LGBT community-building activities in OS, such as identifying and promoting places that celebrate pride, individuality, and diversity. Membership is open to all people and places supportive of our purpose and those working to promote it.

Join us: https://opensimworld.com/groups/1032

Because sharing is caring? 8 people... so up to 4 simultaneous couples at the same time with more than 1000 animations all up! Because it is all flat...you could even make the rug 100% transparent and just place it on a beach! Possibilities are endless - the challenge might be to fill all the sitters!
Uber: hop://playground.darkheartsos.com:8002/Darkhearts%20Boutiq...

@FerdFrederix designed Dream Grid Software with one goal in mind: to revolutionize the way we load grids. Its lightning-fast performance is made possible through a combination of innovative technologies and optimizations, ensuring that your grids load at blazing speeds. A new release 5.4993 is out now, upload now! https://outworldz.com/outworldz_installer/Grid/ https://youtu.be/01CCiUCixiI?si=ADykZ-ijiIeCpcMA

Thank you, Ferd, your many hours invested are very much appreciated!! You are a shining testament to brilliance in coding. Nice work!

For better or worse, I am sharing things I have done for online safety in Opensim, as the reader you can decide for yourself which actions to take. If you can learn from your own mistakes, you are pretty smart but if you can learn from SOMEONE ELSE'S mistakes, you are a genius!

After reading a number of posts on Opensimworld, it is apparent that some hobbyists of unaware of protections they have available when running Opensimulator for the first time. Some tinkerers may opt for running a simulator on their spare computer at home and connecting the region to an OPEN grid like OSgrid or Zetaworlds. Nothing beats the excitement of having your own land for the first time. You spend hours designing your city, giving it a theme, placing sit targets on all of your furniture; everything is 'ponies and rainbows' until some jerk comes in and decides to populate your territory with questionable objects in the hopes they can READ YOUR COMPLAINTS HERE ON OPENSIMWORLD while they are fondling their (ahem - your favorite depiction here) ego at your ire.

THE BEST RESPONSE TO TROLLS IS NO RESPONSE. When you ignore them, they move on to someone else who will make some noise... They are like vampires feeding off of negative energy.

The screenshot above illustrates things you can do to protect your simulators. In 'about land, options' section I un-check the Everyone boxes. Only Group users may use those features. You can also define who may enter, in 'about land, access' you can restrict access to a group or only certain individuals. Now some of you will say "Stop right there, my visitor's AO will not work or they cannot use their custom dance huds". The good news is that if your visitors are using the AO built into their viewer, that is not a problem, they will have their own custom animations or dances and will not need to run scripts. If the visitor is someone you can trust, you can allow them into the group... If you are having a party, you can temporarily enable script access to guests while you are present. When you are running the region it is up to YOU to POLICE IT. You have options for blocking hostiles in your built-in configuration files. There are also scripted solutions for traffic control where you can banish individual users, entire grids or IP ranges in real-time. You are free to seek out any technology which keeps your world safe. I strongly advise that you examine the code before employing these security devices.

For Hypergrid users: Enjoying a LAG-FREE experience is not the HOST's responsibility. IT IS YOURS.

As computers get more powerful each year, region operators WILL populate their sims with content that could bring many CPUs and display adapters to their knees. Lets face it, not everyone can afford to buy a new computer every year with all of the latest bells and whistles. When traveling you want to make sure your PC is optimized for controlling client side lag. Luckily, your viewer has features available to combat these issues. Reducing draw distance, particles, LOD and avatar complexity will give you better frame rates at the expense of reduced visual quality.

Other ways to protect yourself when traveling include: Making sure your SUITCASE IS EMPTY - the more junk you have in there, the more BLOAT that follows you as you travel. You can also make a lightweight hypergrid avatar. The screenshot above shows my actual inventory window. Instead of carrying everything on my person, I have everything rezzed on land in a hidden region on my grid that only I can access. Less inventory means less orange smoke at login. I have been told that some shady grid owners can use rogue simulator code see what is in your suitcase and copy it. I have also heard of grid operators cloning visitors via collision scripted objects - it is easy to copy stuff a cloned avatar is wearing. I always say "Never wear anything when traveling that you do not want some simpleton to copy". I have seen some nasty OSSL code that will crash the sim of the person who cloned you without permission. Trolling the trolls can be fun BUT I digress, TWO WRONGS DO NOT MAKE IT RIGHT.

Opensim does not have to be the 'WILD WILD WEST' - protect yourselves & protect your regions. You and your guests can enjoy the best of Opensimulator.

As always, feel free to share this article when needed.

Peace & Love
Spax

Hi everyone!

Heads up 1: We are changing our instant message system, and your messages will now be integrated with it.

In case there are any unread messages of the old instant-chat system, you can find them in this page: https://opensimworld.com/cmtest/


Heads Up 2: The friends system is changing, from followers to friends. People who follow each other will now become friends, otherwise you have to accept their friend requests. Check your friends requests here: https://opensimworld.com/friends

Thank you!

Reyn and I are excited to bring to you Rigged avatar store! We will be designing bento rigged mesh avatars a bit different than what you might be familiar with. These avatars are designed to work with the Y engine scripts. Clothing is included that can be worn simply by typing into local chat! No more searching through inventory for that favorite blouse! You simply add the textures to the avatar contents and you are set! We have included outfits to get you started! The alphas apply the same fashion just by typing into chat and it applies to the body!
We have a few just for fun and RP and a few that can be worn every day. I can create alphas to work with most clothes. The skin can be changed to your skin if you have the textures. If you know Photoshop or Gimp you can create your very own textures unique to just "you".

A huge thank you to Reyn Softly for creating our store, and a special hug and big thanks to our friend Fred Beckhusen who helped to make all this possible, thank you!
I will be creating new clothes for these avatars as time allows~
continuum.outworldz.net:8002/Monentes%20Jewelry/180/154/701

So many moralists ... OK too many. I don't understand it, please help me. You don't do everything yourself. You copy right and left. From people who give you everything free, copy mod transe. You do the same things on your land/sim. You block it for others. No mod no trans ...... DID YOU ASK YOURSELF AT WHICH RIGHT? ACROSS FROM YOUR PEOPLE? Do you understand the message Yes? Welcome to Opensim! :-)
Go to Google, learn what is Opensim Free spirit!

So viele Moralisten... OK zu viele. Ich verstehe es nicht, hilf mir bitte. Du machst nicht alles selner. Du kopierst rechts und links. Bei Menschen die Dir alles frei geben, copy mod transe. Die selben Sachen stellst Du an sin Land. Du sperrst es für andere. No mod no trans...... HAST DU DICH IRGEND WANN GEFRAGT: MIT WELCHEM RECHT? GEGENÜBER DEINEN MITMENSCHEN? Verstehst Du die Botschaft? Ja? Willkommen in Opensim! :-)
Gehe zu Google, lerne was Opensim Freigeist ist!

I still have over 500 Fatpacks I am currently going through at the moment changing their permissions, however the new store set up is well underway! The old store will be getting removed once I have changed all permissions of everything and I will be decorating the remaining part of the sim. If there are any queries feel free to give me a shout. I am around for a few hours yet.

The items in the boxes should be no more than 30 items and they are completely random and I mean random, lol! You should be able to see everything in the boxes before grabbing them. Sorry if you have duplicate items in your invy from me. But this was the only way that I was able to bring you all of the items I had in my invy without the need to place them in some sort of order. Just imagine it will be like Christmas, never really knowing what you are gonna get until you unpack the box! When you land head towards the West side of the sim and you will see little stores there.

Thank you once more for supporting me, it has been a long haul and I still have a way to go, but getting there slowly but surely!

Maisey ♥

🎾 FREE TENNIS KIT – Swing Into Action!
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✔ Fully Working Tennis System for OpenSim
✔ Launching Ball with Arc, Bounce & Sparkle
✔ Physical Racket with Collision Trigger
✔ Auto-Flip Logic for Rally Gameplay
✔ Swing HUD with Custom Button + Animation
✔ Bonus: Sample Tennis Court Included!

🏆 Rally-Ready: Just Rez, Wear, and Swing!
No setup headaches. Everything's scripted, animated, and ready to play.

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📦 INCLUDED IN THIS KIT:
- 🎾 TennisBall (with flip direction + reset logic)
- 🏸 Physical Tennis Racket (collision launch)
- 🧍 Swing HUD (animation-ready, one-button)
- 🧱 Tennis Court Layout
- ✅ Setup Instructions

💚 Created in 3(H)(G)
Free to use, share, or modify — please keep credits if you expand it.
three.hills.grid.outworldz.net:8002:Catena di Isole

Please find the kit out on the little island where the waves begin.

I've been posting & asking others about "LIKING" our new welcome area :D

If you look above here, you will see this pic that I posted. This is where I am referring for you to "like". :D

You may like elsewhere too! Giggelz :D

But that is the main area that I am referring to! :D

THANKS SO MUCH FOR ALL THE LIKES WE HAVE GOTTEN SO FAR!
THANKS SO MUCH FOR ALL THE LIKES WE WILL BE GETTING!

AWESOME SAUCE ARE ALL YOU PEEPS OUT THERE! :D

https://opensimworld.com/hop/93300

Reposting this as it is an important fix any grid can and should run. There is a patch in core Opensimulator code as of 2/15 to allow outfits to load correctly without breaking links. This has been a bug forever, and was caused by loading IARs. For the those grids that do not use core's latest 0.9.3.1 dev (PBR), I have SQL for grid owners to fix their broken links in outfits. DreamGrid has this patch for future uploads, and also will run this SQL to repair all old outfits. You need do nothing except update to the latest DreamGrid 6.02 (Non PBR) or 7.02 (PBR). DreamGrid will automatically fix old as well as IAR uploads, even in V6 series which is Opensim 0.9.2 ( Non PBR )

Mysql SQL code is this:
use robust; //with whatever your database is. For standalones it may be 'opensim' as there is no robust.
show databases; // will show you which databases you have and their names.

use robust;
update inventoryfolders set type = 47 where foldername='My Outfits' and type = -1;

This fixes all old links. You need the patched Opensim to fix future links, OR you can run this again after loading an IAR. You do not have to do this, links can be fixed in the viewer but it's a tad tedious.

Grids will need to compile dev master from Feb 15 or later to make this automatic fix when loading of IARS. If you can't do that, just run this SQL after any IAR load.

Please be aware you should backup your robust database first, just in case. The details for coders is at http://opensimulator.org/mantis/view.php?id=9180

We all love to fly, don't we?
So I decided to make a ridable version of my dragon, as rezzer, so all your visitors can get their own.
Its temp, no worry of littering your place.
Get yours in my shop!

Siamo sempre alle solite ogni tanto qualcuno izzato da qualche venditore che non puo più prendere i miei avatar e metterli in vendita nel suo negozio, critica insulta e offende, dicono che faccio un buon lavoro, E che diamine! lo faccio davvero! Poi regalo il mio tempo e la mia testa alle persone dell opensim. Statevene a casa vostra, non venite qui a criticare! Stupide persone ignoranti che non sanno leggere e dicono che gli avatar non sono in vendita quando è scritto chiaro e tondo come fare per averne uneuno, o che ti dicono che hai un traffico fasullo... ma cosa cavolo parlate a fare vorrei sapere Se il mio lavoro è buono e se i miei avatar sono miei non copiati dovreste soltanto ringraziarmi che li regalo!

Hello Opensimulators. For those who find and interest in what Second life community pertaining to Linden Lab you might find this interesting. Especially involving child avatars >>> https://community.secondlife.com/blogs/entry/15531-enhanci...

We happy to announce that our new Mall is opened right now !

As you seen we didnt posted new updates the last 2 Weeks. We used the Time to build a Custom Mall for more space so we can grow.

Why a new Mall? We builded a modular System so we do not need always to change the Land. Every Store got a own Brand name so do not be confused about :)

We got so much new stuff done:
* Male Hair Shop as Requested ( 60+ Hairs with 6 Variation )
* Wedding Shop with Suits & Dresses
* Mesh Nail Shop
* Furniture Shop
* Decoration Shop
* Flower Shop
* Skin Shop ( ofcourse with new Skins )
* Sound Shop
and much more!

As requeseted there is allready a Inworld Group Joiner.
We hope that you like the new Mall and ofcourse there will come more stuff for you.

Happy Shopping,
Amelia & Hertha

Bonjour à tous. Cela fait quelques temps aujourd'hui que je traine sur cette petite planète qu'est OSGRID. J'ai un peu de mal avec certaines choses comme beaucoup de gens j'imagine. Je lis parfois vos posts, vos écrits et je suis horrifiée de voir avec quel malin plaisir vous salissez ou pire vous dénigrez les gens ou les choses. C'est affolant. Aucune âme, aucune face. Alors bien sur j'ai comme tout le monde eu mes coups de colère mais heureusement pour ma santé mentale ca ne dure pas.
Nous avons la chance d'être sur une planète ou tout est gratuit bon sang! Avec les mêmes avantages que sur SL et manifestement ce que j'en lis, et hélas, constate les mêmes inconvénients! Expliquez moi : quel est ce démon qui vous rends jaloux parce que XX a fait un plus joli décor, ou plus grand, ou plus complets?? Quelle importance vraiment??? Est ce votre égo surdimensionné qui vous pousse à dire je veux plus de trafic que lui/elle? Quel intérêt?
Et la encore pire : en quoi la façon de s'habiller ou d'être d'une personne vous regarde?? Cela vous choque les nus? cela vous choque qu'elle ne mette pas de culotte? houlà !!! Mais faut consulter la!! ca relève de la psychiatrie en fait.
NOUS SOMMES AVANT TOUT DES AVATARS.
Après, bien sur que la personne qui l'anime est vraie. Mais on s en fou de savoir si son avatar est petit, grand, gros, vert, jaune, ou s'il met des culottes de grands mères ou rien! Ca change la personne que vous êtes de mettre un jeans ou un jogging? Vous vous habillez comme sur le jeu en RL ? Nan parce que la chapeau bas vous devez avoir de sacrés jolies gambettes mesdames et des sacrés corps d'athlètes messieurs! Vu la longueur des jupes et les chemises ouvertes que vous mettez sur os!! Arrêtons L'hypocrisie collective s'il vous plait!
La vie est courte l'avez vous aussi oublié? Votre RL ne vous suffit pas pour le coté sombre? la maladie les factures ?
Je pensais que sur SL le problème venait des Français hé bien non pas du tout. Dans tous les pays manifestement il y a un lot d'abrutis. Et fort heureusement aussi de très belles personnes.
Alors je vais rester dans ma petite grotte avec mon mari et quelques personnes charmantes que j'ai peu rencontrer. Je vais continuer à rêver... je rêvais d'un autre mooonde.....

* Black White Village *
A small, sleepy village on the brink of mayoral elections. There are posters on the streetlights everywhere. Really annoying ...
* * * *
* Black White Village *
Ein kleiner verschlafener Ort, der kurz vor den Bürgermeisterwahlen steht. Überall hängen Plakate an den Straßenlaternen. Echt nervig ...

THE JOYS OF DREAMGRID. DreamGrid is a software by Fred Beckheusen that makes it super easy to set up your own grid on windows. Having your own grid means that you can back up your lands at a whim, or on a schedule you set. You also have the power to back up your own inventory. Why is this important? When a grid is down for maintenance you are at the mercy of other people relying on their timeline to get the grid back up and running. Having your own grid also lets you control your own npc's, and gives you vast amounts of power that you don't have if someone else is in charge. If you have a problem with a person you can block their entire grid, or just that person if you don't like them. You can create and control tides, and automate birds flying in the air. Another super cool feature dreamgrid has, is that it lets you just start up the regions people are in, or going to. This means you can have 500 different lands, but if only 10 people are on your grid, then only up to 10 would be active. So basically as people teleport around your 500 lands, only the lands they teleport to instantly load for them to enjoy. This gives you a vast amount of options. DreamGrid even comes with hundreds of ready-made lands you can click and install and instantly enjoy. It also means that you can run hundreds of regions on a small not very powerful computer at your home, as only the active regions people teleport to will be running.
DreamGrid has so many many options and features, to many to mention... That you don't have access to or even dream about if you are a member of someone elses grid. It's easy to run. Now of course there will be some people who have difficulty starting a program or are just technically dumb who will complain about dreamgrid, but these people really shouldn't be allowed near a computer in the first place. DreamGrid is dead simple to operate and has features such as auto restart a crashed region, auto restart all regions at a certain time similiar to secondLife's rolling restarts, and of course the ability to backup all your hard work and your precious inventory at a moments notice. Put it on an external drive and you will never again lose all your data. So give DreamGrid a try! It really is a work of art that deserves praise and recognition.

Is it me or has OSgrid been having some database issues lately? Sometimes when I change outfits it takes longer to rez stuff, or parts don't rez at all, forcing me to log out and back in to fully wear outfits.

Also I've had some issues with my heads and bodies showing up as white blobs. In those cases I'm forced to unpack another copy and rework my heads and bodies to point to the new copy.

I've no such issues with my Kitely account. May end up using that more often vs OSgrid.

ETA: This is one example from my OSgrid account. I have a few other outfits that look worse as far as rezzing that haven't been fixed yet. Right now I have 144 outfits for my account in OSgrid; many of them are just slight tweaks to a main outfit.
https://gyazo.com/b7ea4b393346f44a05ac0c2bdcf636f4

ETA2: Bloody h#$l, it's also happened to my Kitely action figures! One example here, I did clear out the caches and logged back in before making this screenshot at Fantonelli (don't worry, just added the bra and panties to be somewhat decent lol but I need to show the problem I'm having):
https://gyazo.com/f3bff907dbb9314ae78df3320b894a6b

"I Am So".
Whether it's inattention, inertia, ineptitude, or some other kind of in-thing, all too many people are lacking a profile picture. Are you to be counted among these unfortunates? Or perhaps you have grown tired of your profile picture and are looking for something a bit more...different.

Problem solved. Come to our new Profile Picture Shop where you have your choice of countless (mainly because I'm too lazy to count) interesting, intriguing, inexplicable, or some other kind of in-thing, profile pictures.

Some call me weird, to which I say, "I am so!" These pictures may be suitable for display in your home if not your profile. Whatever the case, just be ready to say, "I am so!"

Visit the new Profile Picture Shop, especially if you are bored and have nothing better to do. (Which is kinda why I made the shop!)

grid.copykat.ovh:12000/Xinashi/116/183/25

Tomorrow, one final party on Metropolis Grid.
THURSDAY, 30 JUNE Begins at 12.00 Grid time, 21h CET
Come to the Startregion, login.metro.land
Remembering all the good times and great sims that were there.
DJane LadyJo Martin spins the tunes, at this *Unofficial Farewell* to one of the grandest old ladies of Opensim.
If you can't get to Metro, join us on the new Osgrid region
hg.osgrid.org:80:Metro Memoriam

We do not have any grid banned! we are hosted by DIGI WORLDZ and must abide by the TOS verification rules. Follow the instruction and key it in correctly and you will get in with no problem. >>>>Here's a link to give to your users:
http://panel.ballernation.us/rci/AuthorizeYourAvatar.php
From there, they can choose if they are a local user, or, if they are a hyper grid user, and then fill in the correct page reminder do not to put in http:// or a slash on the end / Example >>> login.ballernation.us:8002
of the login URL. Choose the right option. Have a good day!

It's really not that hard to be ranked #4 on OpenSim when you plant 8 avatars in your region and just keep them there. I really think that is being very deceitful and skewing the OpenSim numbers to raise yourself in the rank. Regions that have been found to have avatars that are just put there 24/7 should have the region deleted and it should not be allowed. Not only is this grid owner stealing people's regions but now they are lying about who is actually occupying their region to raise themselves in the ranks. Awful!

Little hacker bastard. Look how big the story is. You can hack as much as you want. It doesn't change the story. You are only momentary and nothing you do as a hacker makes you bigger. You are nothing, you have nothing, you will not have been in the end. How pathetic and pitiful. You think what you do is important and right. But you are alone, frustrated, and your hacking successes are those pathetic self-affirmations that don't really satisfy you. You want a world where you are respected. But you are not able to find your way in this world. Not able to approach people and see and accept the positive. To be or not to be, that is the question. In the end it was light or nothing. It's up to you. The negative cannot win. The + always flows to the - and no hacker turns it around. Hackers are mostly children of drug parents or rich people who are socially unfit. So sad, OK smart kids wake up sometime and make something of their life. Failures give up and their characters become impoverished. They fight hard for recognition in an environment where everyone is abusing everyone else to achieve the same illusion. In principle intelligent .... but what use is it if you are socially unfit? There are people who have created positive things, whose name will survive. Your miserable life and the attempts to enrich yourself ...... Your demise will not be noticed.